It appears that I may have a slight head cold. This is not good since my mom will be up and I'd rather not spend the weekend with her being worried about that. If you could take care of that, that would be great.
Love,
Ashley
I'm a little sad for multiple reasons that my time at Taylor as a "freshman" is drawing to a close.
1) I love Gerig. Seriously. If I could live here year round, I would.
2) I love the people. Seriously.
3) I enjoy the atmosphere. Even if my heart is feeling alone, there is such a presence of God here that it's hard to miss.
4) I'm afraid to go home. Not afraid as in frightened, but afraid as in what am I going to do with myself? How will I handle being there without Peter? More importantly: What in the world am I going to do without the DC?!
It's really gone fast. I've learned so much. I've learned about computers, language, God, people, myself, conflict, resolution, psychology, the Bible, Jesus, honesty, transparency...the list goes on. I can't let the learning stop when I go home. I think this is one of the most important things I need to hold on to. I need to figure out how to hold on to what I'v elearned and have the motivation to keep what I've learned close to my heart.
Moving on:
I posted this earlier on facebook:
I really should thank God more often for the beautiful girls I have on my floor.
Last week was a week of lies. Our DA challenged us to find the lies that Satan feeds into us.
These were some of mine:
No one understands me.
No one wants to.
Everyone is lying to me to make me feel better.
No one wants to invest in me.
No one thinks I'm worth it.
No one wants to go deep with me.
No one is interested in what I'm doing.
I'm a failure as a girl.
I won't find anyone else.
We blended our lies and are turning them into new paper. Paper we can write truths on.
God loves you.
God loves me.
I am worth it.
You are worth it.
God understands me.
God understands you and there are people who want to.
There are genuine people out there who do want to invest in me.
There are people who want to invest in you.
Someone out there thinks I'm worth it.
Someone out there thinks you're worth it.
Someone want to go deep with me.
Someone wans someone to go deep with too.
Someone thinks my ideas are cool.
Someone thinks your ideas are cool too.
Somewhere out there is someone who loves and trusts me.
Somewhere out there there is someone who will love you and trust you.
I would encourage you to examine your life and find the lies and rejoice in the truths.\
Last week was a week of lies. Our DA challenged us to find the lies that Satan feeds into us.
These were some of mine:
No one understands me.
No one wants to.
Everyone is lying to me to make me feel better.
No one wants to invest in me.
No one thinks I'm worth it.
No one wants to go deep with me.
No one is interested in what I'm doing.
I'm a failure as a girl.
I won't find anyone else.
We blended our lies and are turning them into new paper. Paper we can write truths on.
God loves you.
God loves me.
I am worth it.
You are worth it.
God understands me.
God understands you and there are people who want to.
There are genuine people out there who do want to invest in me.
There are people who want to invest in you.
Someone out there thinks I'm worth it.
Someone out there thinks you're worth it.
Someone want to go deep with me.
Someone wans someone to go deep with too.
Someone thinks my ideas are cool.
Someone thinks your ideas are cool too.
Somewhere out there is someone who loves and trusts me.
Somewhere out there there is someone who will love you and trust you.
I would encourage you to examine your life and find the lies and rejoice in the truths.\
One of the lies that has especially been hammered into my brain is that: "No one will want to take a chance with you. You're too strong, too stubborn. Peter was the only one who tried and you both failed. You couldn't make him feel secure and he wasn't strong enough for you." But, God has been putting people into my life that I enjoy being with and could imagine opportunities with. Not so much that I want to date them, but Hes' reassuring me that there are people out there.
I can't decide how I feel about this. It'd be nice to have an on-campus boyfriend. I just imagine how I felt during the summer with Peter around most of the time. It was great. But, those guys aren't Peter. So I guess I just keep trusting?
I can't decide how I feel about this. It'd be nice to have an on-campus boyfriend. I just imagine how I felt during the summer with Peter around most of the time. It was great. But, those guys aren't Peter. So I guess I just keep trusting?
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